misguidedlogic

day 1. i stood at the edge of the earth, i would say world, but who am i to make such assumptions that earth is all that there is to the world. i peered down and wondered what i was supposed to do with this life, and if you missed me at all. i remembered your saying i was amazing and would always be, but never let anyone close enough ever to realise this or take it for more than face value; i beam my secrets to you telepathically and hope you can hear them but know you don't; i am really just an insecure girl, and although you may think me amazing i do not, and until i realise this myself i will continue to make mistakes but learn from

the earth talks to the other planets at night when we sleep they discuss how things should be the moon looks on with rapt interest and wobbles only ever so slightly and gleams, causing waves mars said leave me out of it, i'm next apparently and venus is only interested in falling in love jupiter is convinced that everything is about him and interrupts every topic to talk about his mass neptune feels a little blue, shivers a bit and listens saturn isn't paying attention instead thinks of wasted time and wonders why no one is aware of his magnetic personality uranus asks what ever happened to classic beauty mercury chuckles and bask

he asks if it is hard not being in his life i don't at first know how to respond and then i remember the nights my loneliness was so tangible i could reach out and touch it it would materialise before me and wink a bit he was always a doppelganger of you we used to talk, loneliness and i he would be taunting and sometimes bitter i can remember the first time he made me cry i can remember the last time that you did oddly both conversations were the same they were about how you weren't in my life.